meiyan

2010-11-10T01:26:00.002+08:00

hi readers .
it ' s been months since i ' ve last blogged .
LIFE ' S GREAT !
BUT STRESSED AS WELL !
a lot of times i just wanna give up on this job .
BUT i turn around &i notice that hey ..
this is the job that will change my life .
so i just grin my teeth &push forward again .
JIA YOU FYN CHEONG YEA ?
baby ,
let ' s work hand in hand &run towards the finishing line together !

2010-09-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

time doesn ' t prove anything .
a 5 months gonna be relationship
that can be so fragile like glass .
maybe it ' s karma i would say .
anyways , I WILL NEVER GO FOR ANY GUY NO MORE .

2010-08-11T03:17:00.008+08:00

haven ' t been on my blog for sometime .
kinda busy doing some preparations for
work these few days .
buying clothes , doing hair all these .
came here specially to thank my baby haha .
he bought me some stuffs for work as well .

TAA DAA :D

BABY THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING MUACKS !

2010-07-17T04:04:00.002+08:00

today ' s topic : keyboard warrior

definition : those without balls , going
around to spam on blogs due to either depression
or because they have simply have nothing better
to do haha ( LOL )

symtoms : spammers like 14k usually visualise
themselves to be very rich in the virtual world
like for instance on the internet , cause on the
internet , you can be anyone you like ( you can
self claim you are the CEO or director of a
company ( :) like 14k , he imagines himself to be
damn rich )

actual fact : but when it comes to back to REALISM ,
these people are nothing but A PILE OF SHIT .

NOT HAPPY CALL MY NUMBER LA HOR , :D it ' s all stated
down . but before you do so , go ask around first .

2010-07-14T11:53:00.000+08:00

happy 1 year anni to my blog haha
(:
bye bye

2010-06-27T15:46:00.002+08:00

im finally here to blog !
currently at home shaking leg (:
today ' s my off day :D
but my poor baby is working haha ,
cooking his dinner for him now ( porridge )
hope it turns out good haha
ok gotta go watch the fire now .
bye bye readers ^^

2010-05-22T16:59:00.001+08:00

(: 1st picture
taken at st james boiler .
LOVEEEE YAH .
post more pictures later or tml ^^

2010-05-17T20:31:00.002+08:00

geeeeee ,

finally have time to blog .
woo hoo
:D waiting for my baby to come
past few days at msia was fun .
bought lots of tidbits .
but guess what ?
today come home all my tidbits cui cui liao .
don ' t know who open up all my tidbits ..
EVERY SINGLE PACK .
all eat a bit .
my baby bought me foundation &it ' s really funny haha .
cause he insisted he knows which one to buy .
but end up he bought liquid foundation instead of powder one .
wasn ' t really expecting that ..
but quite good to use (:
THANK YOU BABY ^^ MUACKS
will upload the photos of the foundation soon XD
( cause i can ' t find my iphone cable now )
okkkkkkk gotta go bath now

BYE BYE :D

2010-05-06T00:47:00.002+08:00

D: !
SO HOT !
this sick weather is giving me a headache .
sick sick sick weather .
global warming D: D: D: ???
dying .
it ' s soooooooo hot now .
not to mention in the morning or afternoon ,
especially in places like bedok interchange
so freaking hot &i have to do roadshow there .
somemore for 1 week .
im gonna die of heatstroke -.-
heeelp .

ps ; im sad today cause i didn ' t get to
see you D:
good night

):

2010-05-01T03:16:00.004+08:00

YOU !
stop peeking at my blog ok :p
caught you !
funny how things actually ended up this way .
i didn ' t even thought we would end up together .
maybe this is what you call fate
anyways i hope you ' ll be the last one (:
whenever i think back how we actually got together
really makes me smile haha .
quite amazing yea ?
anyways ,
im really touched by your sincerity ,
seeing how you actually always come down to help me ,
whenever im down ,
or console me whenever im sad .
thanks for always being beside me :D

I LOVE YOU ^^
28o41o
&i ' ll always do .

ps ;
darling ,
please acknowledge this post once you read it :D

2009-12-08T15:19:00.002+08:00

ok im so pissed off .
stupid carousel .
stupid shop .
that bloody shop in iluma or whatever shit .
I CAN ' T BELIEVE I SPENT $ 70 ( $ 69.90 ) to be exact .
buying a spoilt figurine carousel .
ONE OF THE HOOF ON THE HORSE IS MISSING .
&IF YOU WANNA OPEN A SHOP PLEASE LA .
CHECK YOUR BLOODY GOODS ARE IN PROPER CONDITION !
2 TIMES EXCHANGE ALSO FAULTY .
WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS IT .
FCUKING IDIOTS -.-

2009-12-08T00:45:00.003+08:00

ok .
made up my mind .
IM GOING TO ITE NEXT YEAR :D
have to work real hard if i get into the course
i want ; beauty therapy .
i still remember 2 years back ..
i almost made it for the interview .
was shortlisted &almost got into the course .
but my n level cert was with my friend so
in the end ,
i didn ' t made it for the intervuew .
hope all goes well for me (:

2009-12-06T07:09:00.002+08:00

THIS POST IS GONNA BE BORING
cause i have nothing in particular to blog .
just felt like blogging .
sick &tired .
why are you being HOT &COLD to me .
IM A HUMAN BEING FOR GOODNESS SAKE .
i have feelings too .
if you don ' t like me or whatsoever .
stop giving me hope .
just get lost .
i might look as if i really don ' t give a damn
to whatever you do .
but do you know ,
late at night ..
those tears are shed because of you ?
so please ,
just leave me alone if you can ' t love me .

2009-12-04T17:01:00.001+08:00

well well ;
i guess i know it all now .
who is a nice guy &worthwhile for me to like .
&who is not .
anyway i ' ve made up my mind .
it ' s too late now :P

with love ,
YAN <3

2009-11-30T18:16:00.002+08:00

todays marks the 15th continous day i ' ll be working .
until sunday then got off .
D: got a bad cough &a flu now .
yesterday last day at speed legend so tried
real hard to push the sales .
finished the bottle of vodka .
drank approximately half a bottle of it
but to me ,
it was worth it .
cause after the bottle finished ,
they opened another bottle of chivas &vodka ^^ .
ANYWAYS ,
hope the business there will thrive .
too tired to blog anymore .

2009-11-27T18:36:00.001+08:00

sian ,
everyday work &play .
drink drink drink everyday .
so meaningless D: ,
where am i supposed to celebrate my bdae this year ?
GEE ..

2009-11-24T05:38:00.001+08:00

was thinking about what jeremy told me .
if you don ' t ever confess your feelings .
YOU ' LL NEVER KNOW WHAT ANOTHER PARTY IS THINKING ABOUT .
but but but
i just don ' t have the courage to do so D: .
im such a coward ..
grrr .
anyways later on must help baby on her prom night .
so excited about it .
hope i can take good pictures .
a good start with polaroid camera .
maybe later on gonna get a D90 or something teehees .
ok shall stop here .
going off .

2009-11-21T05:02:00.002+08:00

D:
boooooooring life .
how nice .
im out of ideas to plan my bdae .
normally i would be so excited when my bdae comes near .
now it ' s less than a month but i don ' t feel anything .
NOT AT ALL .
gosh .
im gonna be nineteen19 ,
next year will start with a two2 le .
sian .
old le D: ,
OH DEAR ME .
wondering how should i celebrate my bdae this year .
really no ideas .
SICK OF PLANNING OUTINGS .
maybe i should buy a cake &blow the candles by myself at home D:

WITH LOVE ;
yaaaan

2009-11-20T16:00:00.008+08:00

this song never fails to remind me of my best friend .

I'll remember you

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

maybe im paranoid ,
fearing that you ' ll forget me D: ,
but i just have a feeling you will .
perhaps this might be a blessing in disguise .
maybe it will create a stronger bond between us .
IF , PERHAPS , MAYBE .

yesterday after work went clubzinc again .
i don ' t know what you ' re up to .
anyways your first impression that you gave me sucks .
&i know im gonna dislike you for another say ..
1o years or so of my life .
you are nothing to me :D
so i shan ' t interfere in anything .
since you are so arrogant .
&i would love it if i ' d never see you again .
preferably in my whole life .
i hate seeing unpleasant people D:
they just make me feel like kicking their ass
&stop kissing infront of me cause it makes me really disgusted D:
e e w .
ok anyways should you come across my blog one day (:
maybe you ' ll know the better options to choose ..
is to keep away from me :D
should you make me flare up .
i ' ll make roasted pig out of you .
I SWEAR &I PROMISE

with love ,
yan - fyn

2009-11-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

im here to pour my sorrows .
damn pub .
customers behaving like i owe them a million bucks .
so unfriendly .
-.- IMPOLITE DAMN YOU

2009-11-16T06:33:00.003+08:00

an empty feeling fills my heart again .
the feeling of loneliness ,
helplessness ,
&being inferior ..
i don ' t like these feelings .
IF ONLY YOU CARED ,
OR YOU KNEW .
HOW MUCH I LIKE YOU .
if only ..
wrong guys ,
wrong timing .

2009-11-08T18:06:00.003+08:00

ok i haven ' t been updating for a long time .
:D finally im back .
anyways someone irritated me on msn ,
so i simply block &deleted him .
that ' s the way to handle those pests i guess .
&IM SINGLE AGAIN (:
&im real glad that i finally broke free .
LESSONS LEARNT ;
never find a boyf that ' s either younger than you
or of same age .
NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE
but this is my personal opinion &it ' s my blog .
i can ' t really remember but i think this is roughly
what i did for the week &last weekend .

sat : after work @hush went to liquid till 6 am plus ?
sun : pub lavender then 7987 ?
mon : after work @hush went to whiskey bar till 4 am plus ?
tues : after work @hush went to clubzinc till 6 am plus ?
wed : went to sam ' s cottage till 6 am plus &breakfast so i ended
up at home at around 9 am ?

&after that i broke the chain :D
drank for 5 continous days till i was feeling
a little out of breathe when i smoked .
BUT NOW IM ALRIGHT AGAIN :D

so it continued ..
fri : went to drink @hush till 2 am plus
sat : after work @hush went to speed legend till 6 am plus

SOME PICTURES TOOK AT SAM ' S COTTAGE :
featuring : raymond ( wen wen ) , tiarra ( baby ) &me

2009-10-18T06:29:00.003+08:00

so many things happened recently .
blinded by anger &i just couldn ' t think properly .
i must thank erik &shi .
2 of my best sisters ,
thanks for always being there for me .

i don ' t understand why people are trying to break me &my
boyf up ; but seriously ; i ' ll not let you succeed (:
so you can go on ahead .
carry with your nonsense &let people around you see how
unreasonable &ungracious you are .
ain ' t gonna bother much about you .
all i ask for is peace ,
but if you bloody hell think you can mess around with me
or my boyf ,
this time round it ' s gonna be so easy ,
i was naive enough to almost fall into your traps .
&im glad my sisters gave me a hand &pulled me out of it .
beloved sisters ,
you ' ll never be forgotten .
BABY shi ,
no matter what .
i say before le .
people want touch you ,
make sure i toh first ,
abo no need to even habour the intention of it .
I SHALL REPEAT IT ONCE MORE ON MY BLOG ;

last but not least ;
just give us some peace ,
don ' t you realise this ?
he loves you no more ,
the more you do such stuffs ,
you ' ll only make people detest you .

171oo9
the day you finally held my hands
or should i say ,
i finally let you get hold of my hands hahas

2009-10-15T01:41:00.002+08:00

i wanna make myself busy .
forget my worries .
forget everything .
sometimes i really wonder .
wondering how life would be if i didn ' t know you ?
puzzled .
VEX - ED !
sometimes being single is really great .
don ' t have to think so much .
hai .
everything ' s not going too smoothly for me .
hope everything gets on track soon .
c ' mon .
jia you cheong mei yan !
JIA YOU JIA YOU :D

2009-10-07T01:14:00.005+08:00

today lunch break ,
lucky got my baby come pei me eat .
i told her i felt like eating mos burger
but i wanted garlic chilli .
&taa daa .
she went to get it for me .
so sweet of her uh ?

tan dong liang ' s bunny ( picture one )

tan dong liang ' s bunny ( picture two )

i love my necklace :D <3

i need a new ring

&that ' s all for today :)
why tell me that you might be going for court review ?
when now im half in love with you .
D:

2009-10-01T02:41:00.002+08:00

stress stress &more stress .
the money i earn have to pay so much things .
have to even pay for utilitie bills &so much more .
wtf .
i need to work hard for more comm !!!
yesterday quarrelled with boyf
i am a person who HATES to repeat things .
do whatever you want .
im seriously very sick of relationships .
VERY VERY VERY SICK OF IT .
if i can just leave everything one side &escape

sometimes i just wish to fall into a deep sleep ;
so i don ' t have to worry about anything .
although i knew ,
escaping is not a solution .
but i chose to avoid ;
because the burden on me .
is something i really can ' t take

2009-09-24T22:30:00.001+08:00

On rainy weathers like this,
I just feel something missing.
A empty feeling.

2009-09-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

mentally stressed ;
physically strained .
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE LA .
FCUK YOU ;
DON ' T FORCE ME TO MY LIMITS .

2009-09-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

D: yan is feeling sad .

DON ' T KNOW WHY .
if only i could numb my affections for love .
how great would that be ?

2009-09-14T05:05:00.000+08:00

time now is 5 . 07 am
&im still awake .
finally the comex fair is over &it ' s my off day !
:D so tired .
anyways some new pictures i promised tdl to post .

tdl de childhood photo

hahaha see what i did to his phone

last but not least bangla &tdl
take a close look :D
looks like they ' re hugging each another yeah ?

today some funny incidents happened on the train .
but im far too lazy to blog about it right now .
will talk about it next time .
okok off to bed now .

learning to like someone from scratch
definitely isn ' t easy .
F - A - T - E

2009-09-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

today was jun long ' s last day .
kinda sad .
anyway , took some pictures .
but only one is in my phone .
the rest are in diana ' s camera =/

LEE JUN LONG
DON ' T FORGET ME OK !
all the best to you (:

from left , diana , jun long &me

2009-09-11T02:07:00.004+08:00

AS PROMISED , I SHALL BLOG YOUR UNGLAM PHOTOS .
MWAHAHAS ;

tan ahdi
here are your pictures
&i must admit i got good photography skills -.- ( as if )

&what the hell ,
i wanted beehoon &noodle prawn noodles
yet he got this for me .

had a really fun day .
(: bullying people .
ahaha .
ok i gotta sleep le .
BYES :D

2009-09-05T22:53:00.001+08:00

THIS IS ME :D

my cousins &my second sis
from left , xiaoshi , ting , jennifer

so cute uh mushroom heads :P
xinhui , sanyi , xinyi

MUSHROOM xinhui morgor :D hee

xinhui &melissa ( melissa is already 10 years old now ! )

ahgong &ahma
really miss ahgong
vivid memories of him run through my mind .

yan really misses the past
haha ,
seriously , childhood is really the best part of one ' s life .
the purest , innocent , naive side of life .
but when we step into adulthood &step into the society .
everything changes .
UGLI - FIES .

2009-09-01T01:39:00.002+08:00

summary

sat
- off , stayed at home with pao bee ( my niece )
then played audi together , went off for our badminton session
at blk 3 de court there .

sun
- off , but woke up at 7 am .
was suppose to wake up at 6 . 15 am but alarm never ring .
guess what ? i set until 6 . 15 pm .
somemore 7 am is pao bee wake me up de .
then we rushed over to admiralty to meet up with my cousins they all .
went bai bai at changi .
shall update pictures tml ( provided i don ' t get lazy )
cause still haven ' t transfer from phone to laptop .
cousin kinda pissed me off .
retaliated by scolding her off -.- ( i ' ve had enough )

mon
- went for work from 1 pm to 8 pm ( released one hour earlier )
if not rightfully it should be 9 de .
all my postings are in simple / broken english cause im
very tired so i just type without thinking much . ( pardon me )
currently in a super duper happy mood ,
don ' t know why .
ok shall end here .

i know i know ,
im not perfect ,
i wanna change
to be a better me ;
yan

2009-08-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

OVERDUE PHOTOS

me at my cousin house (: she has 5 pillows
( all for herself )

knocked into the table in the kitchen
( results = blue black )

my niece at my house eating breakfast ,
laughing all the way , somtimes we just look
at each another &we can laugh non - stop .

my niece loves this so i bought it for her .
she ' s a glutton :P
haha

PHOTOS AT SUNTEC ROADSHOW

at suntec roadshow

looks evil uh ?

i love it when it rains cause the sun
is scorching hot .

judging from her shadow ,
you can roughly gauge how HOT it is .

INSIDE SUNTEC CITY

i don ' t know what this fish is but
looks quite exotic to me haha so took a picture of it

hello fishy (:

i smell something fishy (:

shark ?

so cute

see the girl beside me ,
the one covering her face ?
she ' so cute . ( saide )
just in case you ' re wondering what ' s saide .
it ' s her name .

a closer look at her ( saide )

my colleague rachel (:

ok that ' s all ,
but i ' ll still be updating my pictures from thailand ,
not now but soon cause im lazy (:
recently i fell in love with macadamia .
it ' s delicious ,
i ' ve tried madacamia ice cream from haagen daz ,
macadamia cookies from 7 - 11 ,
but i haven ' t tried the macadamia cakes .
looking at the pics make me drool la D:

im feeling hungry ..

IM SO HUNGRY D:

alright , i ' ll stop here for today .
nights everyone .
<3

2009-08-19T01:51:00.004+08:00

sooo tired .
just reached home not long ago .
went to slack with laopo &boi after work ;
work is killing me D:
anyways i still got a whole load of photos
which i ' ve been too busy to upload .
will upload them real soon (:
so you guys get to see my photography skills :P
my photography skills are real goood . ( if you believe -.- )
haha ,
off to bed now ,
nights <3

2009-08-16T14:28:00.005+08:00

here to post again !
was back on friday 1 am .
flight got delayed so instead of reaching at 12 : 15 am .
i reached singapore at 1 am .
i ' ll be uploading pictures later on .
so hungry right now D:

see their roadside stalls

fried kuay teow with seafood &veggies

one typical plate like this only costs you
40 bahts . not even $ 2 . as for the drink ,
the big cup of pepsi in the picture only costs
you 10 baht . not even 50 cents . (:

the eggs without yolks

i ' ll upload the video soon .
then you all can see for yourselves .
the eggs no yolk de . but the egg is
delicious . we can ' t find people selling
grilled eggs in singapore . but in thailand ,
it ' s like so common . 4 in one stick .
20 baht . one egg is less than 25 cents .

cuttlefish

fried or grilled insects >.< ?

our supper for the 2nd night

2009-08-09T05:16:00.001+08:00

bye people (:
im flying off on monday morning .
less then 24 hours more ;
im going to bangkok :D
first time taking aeroplane haha ;
can you imagine how excited i am ?
&im kinda proud of myself :o
i paid for my own ticket PLUS my own expenses i intend to spend there
changed $ 450 singapore dollars into thai baht around 10 k .
not really enough for me cause i wanna go on a shopping spree .
came back from my cousin ' s house .
then my another cousin drove us back ,
she just got her license .
kinda envy her ,
but i always tell everyone .
if im the traffic police ,
i ' ll definitely stop her &ask for her license .
cause she looks young .
she got her license at 19 ,
i hope to get mine before im 19 too (: ( a little impossible )
sometimes i really regretted not studying hard .
i have 5 cousins , ( near the same age range as me )
either younger than me by one , same age , older than me by one or by two .
i remember none of them got into the express stream except me ,
but now i really envy one of them .
she was in the na stream ,
took her n ' s & o levels .
she got into a ite ,
top 3 in the course she was taking .
AND NOW ; she ' s in poly . (:
bright future . ( this is the cousin i was mentioning about having a license )
so now , the best i can do is to find a job with a future &work hard .

many overdue photos (: but i ' ll update soon .
i thought my phone ' s cable got problem ,
took some photos of my cousin ,
then she ask me to send to her via msn .
so i tried the cable again &it worked .
AMAZING ~
will update it together with my HOLIDAY PICTURES :D

2009-08-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

heeeeeya

currently listening to mad - by neyo .
so addicted to this song .
it ' s very nice .
must listen yeah ?
just came back from siang teng .
tml , tues &wed also have .
being a grown up is a tough chore !
having to think about money everyday .
zz
when will i be rich ?
drop some money on me god .
im planning hard for my future .
i wanna continue my studies but who ' s gonna pay ?
i can ' t generate money once im schooling zz ;
all those who have a chance to study ,
cherish it .
cause you ' ll really regret it once you miss the opportunity .

i wanna make big money
so daddy , mummy , aunt
these three beloved of mine
don ' t have to work so hard
i ' ll work hard

2009-07-29T01:13:00.002+08:00

i had many things i wanted to post but i can ' t remember them now .
just came out from friendster .
saw willy ' s profile &i suddenly realised my eyes are getting wet .
I MISS YOU WILLY POH BUT YOU GOT MISS US A NOT ?!
can you hear me ?
did you hear me ?
i wonder ..

i don ' t know when he ' ll be out .
but i hope he ' ll turn over a new leaf when he ' s out .
he used to be the one i could pour my sorrows to ;
now im lonely .
im that kind of people who don ' t have much close friends ,
each &everyone of my close friends ,
i cherish you guys a lot .
so much you guys probably wouldn ' t know .

&i ' ll be quitting my job at boat quay next week .
it ' ll be my last day .
im gonna miss some people there .
i ' ve learnt many things the hard way .
people might hate me , that ' s just because you don ' t know me well enough .
i don ' t like finding troubles .
i might be mean ( in the past )
that ' s because people came &provoked me first .
im not those kind who go around stepping on people ' s tail .
if you knew me well enough ,
you ' d know i have reasons for my own doings .

a lonely monster
on the very edge of the earth
waiting for someone to drop by
&take her to somewhere where there ' s no sorrow ;
only laughter &smiles .

2009-07-27T03:21:00.003+08:00

cabbed home today after work .
reason being ?
no train le D: ,

today work was quite fun ,
joyce , jun long , erik &me were crapping to each another ,
talking almost throughout the day .
&after work ,
the four of us went to changi airport there de POPEYE &eat .
THE FRENCH FRIES ARE DELICIOUS ( ratings : 4 / 5 by yan )

some pictures to upload ,
the others are trapped in my phone ,
cause my cable spoil ,
so i can ' t upload those pictures that are in my phone .

DUH , blogger got some problem ,
can ' t upload &im lazy .
get it done another day .
BYE READERS IM OFF (:

2009-07-26T01:17:00.002+08:00

IM TOO TIRED TO POST SOMETHING LONG
really really tired after work .
10 hours of work .
can ' t make it le .
will blog more tml after work .

2009-07-24T15:22:00.000+08:00

im so angry D: !
you are stupid .

2009-07-23T23:19:00.001+08:00

YAN ISN ' T FEELING TOO WELL D:

2009-07-23T02:03:00.004+08:00

in the middle of the night ,
im hugging my soft toy , doggy ,
here to blog .

yesterday ( wednesday ) got two new phillipinas ( girl )
came to work , fucked up one .
keep on getting in my way ,
they were irritating me all the way ,
talking to me rudely ,
interrupting me when i was trying to do a sale ,
so i flared up &told her .
can you just shut up &fuck off ?
somemore her friend purposely stand in my way
so i just walked through
so ' accidentally ' banged into her .
im no pushover .
stupid people .
i can be very nice BUT i can be very mean also (:

minutes later ,
both of them inside office ,
complaining to my boss .
they told the boss i scold them &they were very angry .
so my boss told them .
ok , you all can go first .
yesterday was my day off so i wasn ' t at the shop
when they went for the interview .
they must have thought that i was new &was probably some pushover .

(: but got nagged ,
my boss &another colleague , eric ,
said i shouldn ' t have fucked them .
but aiya ,
scold also scold le :P

&one sad thing .
i realised i don ' t like anyone or love anyone .
what ' s happening to me ?
perhaps im numb le bahs ?
i wanna get married soon &have a baby .
( they ' re so cute ! )
but i can ' t think of anyone whom im willing to
spend the rest of my life with .
hai ,
let nature take it ' s own course bah .

signing off ;
yan
where ' s my mr . right ?

2009-07-18T23:21:00.003+08:00

some pictures taken at butter factory ..

my luminous shoe

me &my sister

shot 2

seriously , i don ' t know this man

shot 2

yesterday many people came down for interview ,

2 of them were selected &they came for work today .

one guy , one girl .

the guy , a singaporean .

the girl , myanmmar .

chatted throughout the day with the guy ,

didn ' t talk much to the girl cause we got communication problems ,

she can ' t understand what i say &i couldn ' t understand what she

was trying to say also .

after whole day of work ,

johnny said the girl wasn ' t suitable for the job cause if you ' re that kind

of quiet type who sit around &don ' t talk much , you can ' t really do sales .

so tml she ' s not coming anymore .
as for the guy , i think he ' s still quite alright la .

yesterday went to butter factory with my sister &cousin ,

NOT FUN DE ,

keep on tio ps by my cousin cause she was glued to her friends .

2009-07-15T22:30:00.002+08:00

two more days till broadband comes (:

today boss told me business not good
so TA - DA ,
my basic pay is gone ,
revert back to commission based .
wondering how to survive , so vexed .
entering adulthood &being independent financially
is something very tough .
HAIS ,
god , drop some money down on me please !
i still need to go bangkok &pay for driving lessons .
august going bangkok le ,
at least must change 500 dollars to go &enjoy .
5 days 4 nights , one day only 100 dollars for me to spend
can ' t anyhow splurge on stuffs ,
these few days gotta earn more commission ,
JIA YOU TO MYSELF (:
GAMBATEH !

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2009-07-14T23:31:00.011+08:00

im back :D

deleted all previous posts as it seemed rather untidy ,
these few days , im so confused that i can ' t do everythinq right .
went to work as usual today ,
BUT
today work was very relax .
i sort of had half a day off today cause i went off for my ftt ( final
theory test ) at 3 pm .
flung the test , was a little disappointed but i should have expected
that . ( what can i expect when i didn ' t revise ? )
couldn ' t concentrate on the test neither ,
too confused .
sometimes i really wonder whether is there anything wrong with me .
one minute i can be hoping around like mad ,
another minute i could just be sitting down quietly .
too many things are running in my mind .
&im having insufficient sleep .
imagine yourself sleeping at 6 or 7 am in the morninq &having to wake
up at 9 or 10 am for work .
of course i have a reason for all my doings .
im just just just soooo confused .

some pictures taken a few days ago when i was out prawn
fishing with vince &ronnie @somewhere ,

he kept asking me to eat them &he said he wouldn ' t

bring me to catch prawns anymore if i didn ' t eat them

shelling prawns :)

he ate half the plate of prawns i suppose

smallest catch of the day

slimy creepy crawlies